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Sick

Ugh. I have a stupid cold and I can't breathe out of my nose at all. I've taken claritin and mucinex and nyquil. Not all at once, but nothing seems to be helping. I hate not being able to breathe out my nose. Pip is sick too. I had to leave work early and take him to the vet. He threw up last ngiht and then wouldn't eat this morning. The vet is keeping him overnight to do x-rays. She is afraid he ate something and it got caught or poked a hole in his insides. I wish we could get him to stop eating stuff. He's been eating the branches off of the maple tree when we let him outside. I don't know how to get him to stop!!

I ordered all my garden plants this weekend. I'm ready to start working on the yard!

Ang came over last night and we shared a bottle of vino and watched sex and the city. It was a good night. Can't wait until Friday. We get to go out!!

Also need to talk to Steve about something Mike said during the sermon yesterday. He siad something about leaving things up to God and trusting God. Now I'm torn b/c I dont' know whether we should keep pursuing baby stuff or whether we should just pray about it and leave it in God's hands. I mean I keep thinking about the joke about the guy on the roof in the flood and how God sent all these people to help him and he kept sending them away b/c he believed God would save him. I don't know. Is it wrong to go to the fertility doc and investigate what's wrong? Or did God provide the doc to help people. UGH. Maybe I'll talk to Ang and Natalie about it.

Disappointed

Steve and I were supposed to go out for Valentine's today. Only he got busy with his cousin talking about dork stuff I'm sure. So instead we went to Bob Evans here in town. I was even all dressed up and let Liz curl my hair. She always curls it big - but I wanted to look nice. I kind of had nefarious plans. Now I'm irritated and don't even feel like being nefarious. When I asked if we could go tomorrow I get sighed at. The longer I think about it the more irritated I get which is not a good sign. I'm feeling like punching something right now and we know how well that turns out (New years Eve) I know it's stupid to be so diasppointed but I was looking forward to it all week. Instead I'm stuck here in crappy little H-ton. Argh I kind of want to scream. Going to go upstairs and pout before I lose it.

Still snowing

It's still snowing. I'm glad I made it to the grocery store this morning. We are set for not going out tomorrow and maybe not Thursday. Pip is acting all wigged out. He's scared by the weather. He doesn't like us leaving him alone. I had to go out and help Steve get unstuck in the alley. He slid off the side into a huge drift. I'm pretty sure we won't go to school tomorrow. It's funny but I love this weather it's wild and free and like a sign from God. That he is all powerful and mighty.

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Snow possible?

Well the news is calling for snow tomorrow. They say anywhere for 6 to 12 inches in some areas of Huntington county. They also say that blowing and drifting will be bad. Right now there's not a flake in the sky - I'm really rooting for the weather guy this time though. I would love a snow day. The kids were all kinds of chatty and nitpicky today. It was so bad I had to sit them in rows boy girl boy girl. I hate rows - my room is too small for rows. But anything for some work and quiet. We're supposed to go on a field trip tomorrow. I'm hoping for at least a delay. If we delay we won't go. Things are not as organized I would like them to be thanks in part to my cohort. UGH.

Yesterday was an okay day. Steve and I made it to church and to Covenant Community. Sometimes I feel really uncomfortable at church like I'm a big faker. I don't pray or do devotionals as often as I should. I definitely need to start the prayer devotional journal. I'm glad that Steve is happy there though. I feel like our relationship is improving b/c of church. I'm happy there too, it's just the imposter feeling. I guess part of it goes down to my frustration with the baby stuff and feeling let down by God sometimes. I know that the solution is to spend more time with God - it's just tough getting started. I know that that's b/c of Satan wanting to push me away from God. I need some work I guess.

Angie and I are going to go see "Because I Said So" tonight. We have coupons. Then we're going back to my house to eat leftover pasta adn drink vino. I'm glad we get to hang out so often. I don't know what I'd do if Steve hated me spending time with her. I'm truly blessed in that aspect. Sometimes I guess I forget how blessed I am.

I'm working on my garden order too right now. I'm going to order lots of perennials. I'm so excited about all the things I have planned for the yard. I kind of hope Steve gets me one of the yard things I want for Valentine's Day. I'm beginning to look forward to spring.

Lazy Saturday

Today is a lazy Saturday. Steve is at work until 2:30, so I've been straightening up the house and lounging around. I got up this morning and met Angie for b-fast at Johnny's. (Yum as usual) Then I was off to the Hallmark store and Walmart for Steve's Valentine's. I got him one of the talking stuffed animals from the Hallmark store -Leonardo the leopard.He says all these corny come on lines - it's adorable. Then I went to Walmart and picked up the Stewie Family Guy movie. He loves the Family Guy. I think I did good. I always have so much trouble figuring gifts out for him. But I'm having a winning streak right now. I'm going to get him his computer chair for his b-day next month so it's nice to know what my plan is.

Tonight I'm making Bobby's dad's spaghetti sauce. Then we're going to pop some popcorn and watch movies. It's going to be a good Saturady night. Tomorrow is Convenant Community. That means I'll need to fix somthing in the crockpot. I'm leaning towards ham and beans b/c I know Steve loves that and they'll be leftovers for his lunch next week. Well- I need to run to Aldi's woohoo.

Another Friday

It's friday once again and I'm glad. This was an odd week since we had a delay the first three days. Kind of makes the week seem longer which is strange. My UTI is feeling better, unfortunately the medicine the doctor gave me makes my head hurt. She prescribed keflex in case we get pregnant while I am still taking it. I have to take it for 2 weeks. Don't know if I can deal with the head aches. But it's either that or call my doc and see if he'll prescribe something lse without me going in. I had to go home from work yesterday b/c I had such a bad head ache.

LAst night was our first night of women's group with the new book. Only 6 of us were there, but it was a good discussion. Next week I have to lead. I'm glad I'm taking this step, but I'm nervous too. At least I can check one thing off on my Blueprint for Life group. I need to start my prayer journal too. Last night we tlaked quite a bit about prayer. I don't really set aside enough time in the day to pray. I know I'm guilty of only praying when I need something. I got a blank journal at the dollar store and I'm going to start setting aside time to read my way through the bible using the chart from church. I figure I can use the journal to write down verses that I like too. I just have to start doing it.

Guess it's kind of like other things in my life. I have to find the willpower to make myself do them. For example, I keep saying I'm going to go to the Y every day, but I don't make it. I seriously am going to start next week. I'll even keep track of it on the calendar. No more excuses. I wish it was warm enough to walk outside though. I love walking outside.

I started making lists of what I want to do to the yard this year. Definitely have some home improvements to do outdoors come spring. Going to put together a list of plants I want to order too. Something to do while I wait for spring.

Teaching

This email was forwarded to me. I'm going to re-read it every time I forget why I teach.

The dinner guests were sitting around the table discussing life. One man, a CEO, decided to explain the problem with education. He argued, "What's a kid going to learn from someone who decided his best option in life was to become a teacher?"

He reminded the other dinner guests what they say about teachers: "Those who can, do. Those who can't, teach."

To stress his point he said to another guest; "You're a teacher, Bonnie. Be honest. What do you make?"

Bonnie, who had a reputation for honesty and frankness replied, "You want to know what I make? (She paused for a second, then began...)
"Well, I make kids work harder than they ever thought they could.
I make a C+ feel like the Congressional Medal of Honor.
I make kids sit through 40 minutes of class time when their parents can't make them sit for 5 without an I Pod, Game Cube or movie rental...

You want to know what else I make?" (She paused again and looked at each and every person at the table)
I make kids wonder.
I make them question.
I make them criticize.
I make them apologize and mean it.
I make them have respect and take responsibility for their actions.
I teach them to write and then I make them write.
I make them read, read, read.
I make them show all their work in math.
I make my students from other countries learn everything they need to know in English while preserving their unique cultural identity.
I make my classroom a place where all my students feel safe.
Finally, I make them understand that if they use the gifts they were given, work hard, and follow their hearts, they can succeed in life.

(Bonnie paused one last time and then continued.) "Then, when people try to judge me by what I make, I can hold my head up high and pay no attention because they are ignorant... You want to know what I make? I MAKE A DIFFERENCE. What do you make?"

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Sister in law

Shaleen called last night. Steve hung up on her the first time after they yelled at each other. Then she spt calling and I told him he needed to answer it and just tell her he didn't want to talk to her. So he answered it and listened to her for awhile. She admits she has a drinking problem, but still stands by the statement that she doesn't have a drug problem. How she can say that I don't know! She did Crack while pregnant and she knew she was pregnant. It makes me sick and furious to think about. She was giving him the same old song and dance. Nothing is ever her fault. She told him Ana's problems were b/c the hospital made her wait in the waiting room 4 hours before seeing her. I find that very hard to believe that a hospital would keep someone in premature labor waiting. Of course none of it is caused by the fact she was strung out on crack when she got to the hospital. I know I should be praying for her to really get better and recover but it's so hard. Especially when we're trying to have a baby and struggling. I'd love to have Ana come live with us. (Right now she's living with their parents.) But I need to be the better person and pray for Shaleen and Ana.

Ang got bad news today. They owe money for taxes. Ugh. It seems like just when they get things going the right way something crappy happens. I really feel bad for her. I hope they can still take their honeymoon. I'm going to work on coming up with cheap things for us to do on her days off.

I'm ready for the weekend. I've got winter burnout at work. Wish it would snow tongiht so we didnt' have school.

Snowing!

It's been snowing all day. Yaaaay. I thought we were only supposed to get an inch or two, but if it doesn't stop I'd say we may get more than that. It's also supposed to blow tonight, maybe we won't have school tomorrow. Definitely that would be a great thing. Especially since we were supposed to have a half day and if we only have a delay we will have a full day. I need to schedule a doctor's appt too. I think I have a UTI. It really snuck up on me too. I used to get them frequently, but haven't in a while and I woke up with pain this morning. It's feeling a little better right now. I've been chugging cranberry juice and h2o. Also taking an over the counter thing. Maybe I can get away with not going to the doc. I hate the thought of having to get a sub for a half day tomorrow. Maybe I can wait it out. Hmmmmmmm maybe the snow will keep falling and it won't be an issue. Fingers are crossed.

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Brrrrrrrr it's cold out there

We had a two hour delay today. It's so cold outside. They didn't want the kids standing out in it at the bus stop. Especially considering some of the kids don't wear much in the way of coats. I was glad we had a delay today - it makes the day go much faster. But the kids are very chatty today. I suspect that it's as a result of the delay or an impending weather change. Whatever the cause I wish they'd quiet down. I'm supposed to go to one of the kids ball games tonight. I wish I could get out of it, but I promised. I guess they only last an hour, and maybe I can leave early. Going to see if Ang wants to get some dinner afterwards.

Yesterday was a good day in spite of Steve being a grouch in the morning. He was snapping at me about everything. UGH. We had it out over lunch and he calmed down considerably. Then we went to see "The Messengers" which was a pretty good movie. After that he played for a couple of hours and then we watched the SuperBowl together. I made chili using one of Rachel Ray's recipes. He liked it. I guess it was okay, but it wasn't fabulous. Oh well.

I also got some good news this weekend. Karen called and told me she had run into her fertility doctor in the hospital and asked him about insurance. He does take m-plan. Yaaaaayyyyyy!!!!!!!! Now I go ahead and finish taking this round of Clomid and rest a little easier knowing that if the clomid doesn't work my doc can refer me to Dr. Bopp. Maybe things are going to finally turn for me. I think I'll call Ang and see if she wants to get some dinner tonight when I get done with the ballgame.